Spencer's 9 Month Appointment

Here are Spencer's stats for 9 months:
Height: 27.5 inches (25%)
Weight: 17.1 pounds (5%)
Head circumference: 45 cm (50%)

Overall he is a pretty healthy boy! Dr Rose says he is one of the most alert and curious babies he's ever seen, but maybe he's just saying that. Spencer didn't cry at all when they did the finger poke for the hematocrit. Spencer's iron levels were a little low so we got sent to the main hospital lab for a re-draw. Dr Rose kept saying that with all the illness going around that maybe his bone marrow is just suppressed. WHAT?! That is a naughty thing to say to a nurse! Anywho...we made the trek to the other side of the hospital after a short visit with my peeps on family birth place. I think I hated it more than Spencer. He didn't even cry when they poked him with the big needle until they started pulling back to get the blood. They did give him a cute teddy bear with scrubs on for being such a good little guy. One of the lab techs recognized me from my stint on family birth and talked with me a bit.

Onto school matters...this nursing management class is kicking my butt! It's a good thing it's not very integral to my nursing knowledge. I have passed all the other courses with flying colors but this one is a doozy. It's all just too boring!

Tonight in institute my teacher made me very sad. He was saying something about a lesson we should have just had in Sunday school. No one said anything and he said, "What? Don't you go to church?" I felt totally bad because I have not been to Sunday school in like 2 1/2 years. I really like this teacher and have taken 2 other classes from him. But lately, all I feel when I leave is guilt. Guilt and shame and worthless. I feel like I'm never going to be good enough because I'm not doing all the things I should be like studying the scriptures in depth for at least 15 minutes daily. Seriously, should an institute class make you feel this crappy?

You know those songs that just bring up certain memories when you hear them? Well I had one of those moments tonight. For some reason, Beer For My Horses by Toby Keith and Willie Nelson conjures up memories of my time as a sweeper at Monte Vista. Probably because it was on my mp3 player and I always had it playing while I did my job. And when I heard the Hawaiian version of Over The Rainbow, it brought back memories of a certain someone. Crazy what music can do! I learned that violin music can make a plant grow twice as fast and can change its chromosomes. Maybe I should whip mine out and play for Spencer!

Thanks for letting me rant. Sometimes I feel like this blog is my outlet other than my regular journal.