I passed my NCLEX-RN test! I am officially a registered nurse. Now just to find a job...I've been applying for lots of jobs anywhere I can find them, but so far no luck :(

Today I took my NCLEX-RN test. It is the big test that gives me my nursing license. I was really nervous but Jacob gave me an awesome blessing that helped me feel better. The minimum number of questions you can get is 75; maximum is 265. The test stops as soon as the majority of your questions are answered right or wrong. I got 75 questions, so that means that basically either I passed or I failed miserably. I should find out in 2 days, but until then, I'm going to try not to stress. Now I'm just going to party!!!

Lost

Since I graduated last week I have felt lost (for lack of a better word). All I've known since kindergarten is school. School has been my life for a long time, and now it's over. I feel sad too that all my friends are moving on to their bachelor's degrees, even the ones with babies. It makes me sad to think I am not going on too, but I really have never wanted a bachelors in nursing, so why do it? I feel as though I have no direction to go in my life. I feel like I need something new to move towards, because right now I'm going nowhere. My next goals right now are to pass my NCLEX and get a job, but those will hopefully be done soon too. Anyone have any insight?

Finished!

Last night I took my last final to finish the nursing program! I am so excited to be done! Now I just have to find things to do with my little guy, especially while it's still bad weather!

You know you're in nursing school if...

• You dream about drug names
• You don't have time to eat, sleep, or pee, but you have time to care about the homeless population (Jessica Kemp)
• You know many different ways to kill people
• Games of "Would You Rather" include things like sucking on the yaunker of a pneumonia patient
• You laugh at jokes most people wouldn't understand
• One of your textbooks weighs more than your 6 month old
• You can handle blood, guts, pee, poop, vomit, and mucus, but your brother's toe jam grosses you out
• You can't wait to be done but are terrified to be out in the "real world"

Discourgaged...

Right now I'm finding myself more and more discouraged with the RN job situation. A lot of the jobs out there are full time and full time is not something I want to be doing. All I've ever wanted to do with my life is work with the moms and babies, and right now that is not possible. I don't want to work with stinky old people, I hate it. I've never really felt like my faith has been tested during my life much, but right now I think it is. I feel like I am just going to need to hold out and have faith that because I have a family and finished school that eventually something will come up. And to be honest, if I wouldn't have had Spencer last summer, it would have been this summer, so I'd still be in the same situation. And really, I need something to do once a week to use my license that I've worked so hard to earn and to get out of the house! Right now I'm really feeling like my work on my floor for 2.5 years has been for nothing and that my schooling has just been a waste of time.

Here's my soap box for the day: *Clears throat* Take your full course of antibiotics...take them until they are gone even if you start to feel better! Those of you who do not are contributing to drug resistant strains of bacteria and viruses! And...do NOT save antibiotics from previous illnesses (if you take your full ...course you shouldn't have any left over) If you have any in your medication cabinet, throw them out!

Lack of postage

Sorry for not many posts guys...I am pretty busy with school and Spencer. All I keep telling myself is get through this semester...one day at a time...
I got to do a cardioversion this week in clinical. I started the IV (success!) and gave propofol to sedate. FOr those of you who don't know what a cardioversion is.. it's a procedure where they sedate you and then shock your heart because it's in a funny rhythm. The patients don't remember getting shocked because they are sedated. It's interesting, but it was hard to watch someone get shocked like that.