Today has been an emotional day. I was able to get work off to go to the funeral of Celeste Poll. I moved into her ward when we were both starting young women's so we spent our teenage years together you could say. She was also into music so we did some things with BHS symphony and tour.
I was nervous because I hadn't been to a funeral or viewing in a long time. I also didn't know how to handle my emotions. It's so strange that I have never really been one to cry at spiritual events or movie but ever since I had Spencer, I've been way more emotional. I was so lucky to be sitting by a good friend from orchestra days, Arielle. We both got emotional but it was neat to have a friend to share it with. She put her arm around me when I was having a more difficult moment. Thank you, Arielle, you'll never know how much that meant to me.
It has been interesting sorting out my feelings. Although we were never the best of friends, we still shared moments together at girls camp, youth conference, etc. I remember at youth conference we all style the boy's boxers and hung them on the flag pole.
It's so strange to think we were the same age and to think someone at this age could die.
As we stood in line to give our condolences to the family, I kept thinking "that looks like Celeste, but I know it's not really her, her spirit is no longer in this body".
I questioned why this family had to deal with such a hardship. They are one of the most righteous families I know. I was reminded, however, that Heavenly Father will only give us what He knows we can handle.
As the funeral went on, it was reiterated over and over again that families are eternal and that because of the plan of salvation, we can live again. What a testimony builder it was for me.
One of my favorite parts was when the madrigals sang. She had been a madrigal and so they all sang a song that had been written by her. It was just so neat to see all the friends from high school who knew her and were there for support. I hope there are that many people at my funeral!
Anyway, I hope this hasn't been a drag. I just wanted to share my feelings and insights with you all.
3 comments:
I'm sorry Brittney. :( Funerals are always hard to go to. I always cry, even if I hardly knew the person, because that's just how I am. If I see someone going through a hard time, I cry too. Thanks for posting about this. I always love to read about testimony builders that my friends have. Families are forever!
Very well put, Brittany. You captured many of my feelings exactly. And I'm so glad we were able to sit together and help each other. You helped me as much as I helped you. :) You are so great!
Love, Compassion, and Emotions seem to be linked together. When I loose a close friend or a loved one I am always emotional. Thank you so much for your comments.
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